some days, i’m just like: yeah, next to normal totally should have won the tony, any sane person knows that, but there’s no use complaining, nothing can be done about it. then i have other days when i’m like: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS WRONG WITH THE WING, IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL AND MOVING AND BILLY ELLIOT IS SHIT IN COMPARISON WHY WOULD YOU GIVE IT TO THAT FLUFF SHOW WHEN NEXT TO NORMAL MAKES YOU PHYSICALLY HURT WITH PAIN BUT THEN IT MAKES YOU LAUGH TOO AND IT’S SWEET AND POIGNANT AND MORE RELATABLE AND IT DOES MORE FOR PEOPLE THAN ANYTHING ELSE AND THERE WERE 6 PEOPLE WHO DID MORE THAN THE WHOLE CAST OF BILLY ELLIOT AND JUST WHAT THE FUCK WHY GOD WHY OMG

Exactly how I feel most days.

Source: mrsmelchiorgabor

Thanks, I guess.” “Are you
clean?” “Well, coming from you.” “I
don’t do what you do.
“Hey #1” next to normal
The light and heat of
every sun, I’m a bullet
from a magic gun.
“Wish I Were Here” next to normal
Coping and hurting
and hoping for day after
fucking day. Why stay?
“Why Stay?/A Promise” next to normal
Take a look at the
Invisible Girl, here she
is clear as the day.
“Superboy and the Invisible Girl” next to normal
And you wish you would
be gone, but you’ll stay. You’ll stay.
For my family’s sake.
“Just Another Day” next to normal

Spanish exam had His last name on it. Threw me off my game. Ugh. Listening to next to normal so I can get my emotions into a manageable bundle.

Can I hide my stupid hunger, fake some confidence and cheer, “wish I were here”? Wish I were here.
Natalie Goodman, “Wish I Were Here” from Next to Normal by Tom Kitt & Brian Yorkey