A quick apology/update

I haven’t really been too active these past few days because of personal stuff happening with my family.

My aunt (Mina) has dementia/alzheimer’s/ALS/Lou Gherig’s/frontal lobal dementia/the doctors can’t really decide and they don’t really have a treatment plan.

That being said, she’s been sick-er as of late. I.e., pneumonia, general lack of movement in her limbs, loss of control of her body.

So, Saturday night she wasn’t doing too good. Sunday morning, my cousins take her over to the ER. (She’s been in and out of hospitals since Thanksgiving.) My uncle’s at the point where he doesn’t want anyone to know anything because if they cared, they’d call. So, he says he doesn’t want my mom to know. And I mean, I get it, I do. But my Mom’s helped as much as she can.

It is her sister after all. (I get that it’s his wife and it’s my cousins’ Mom.) I also understand that there are simply some people we can’t stand seeing sick.

For Mom, it’s my aunt (Mina). For Mina it was my grandma. For my cousin Anthony (Mina’s son), it’s Mina. Some people just can’t handle seeing x person sick/hurting. I get it.

Well, my Mina heard Peno (her husband) telling their daughter Sheila that he didn’t want to call my mom or my other aunt Lisa.

Mina told him that he should call Mom. She told him that she wanted to see Mom.

This sounds very final. it fucking sucks.

Mom calls me in the living room and we go to San Anton. My aunt is yellow and sickly and really the whole ordeal is fucking painful to watch.

It feels very final.

We spent the night Sunday and by the end of the night she was looking better than she had when we first got to San Antonio.

It was one day. One very long day. It’s felt like forever. I’m actually waiting for RAAM’s shadow to finish downloading so I can unwind.

I might be a few days before I go back to posting stuff like the 30 day drawing challenge.

My aunt said she was seeing and talking to family members who’ve passed. Grandma and grandpa, 4 and 19 years, respectively.

She didn’t remember me and mom visiting her Monday morning before we made the drive up to Austin for work and whatnot.

It’s.

Tiring.

I think I’m less open to bullshit on the internet right now.

Especially considering the racial and classist crap that my family has had to endure from WellMed. God, that company screwed them so completely. I cannot express.

This isn’t even mentioning what Lisa’s doing.

Fuck.

Anyway, I’m around. You know how to get at me.